queenofshebaBrr...
December 7th 2006 05:37
Hey guys,
I have to make this post quick because although it is nearly 40 degrees outside, the computer room I am in feels sub zero and I am freezing.
I was a bit depressed last night and had a bit of a cry, because I my boy wanted me to do something with him and I was a bitch and ignored it.. but we talked about it and we're ok now, but I think that got me down a little bit.
I still really want to cut myself at times, which is hard, because sometimes it's the only thing that I know will make me feel a little better, but I wouldn't do it to my boy, I love him too much to hurt him like that. I still can't bring myself to tell him that I still feel liek doing it, but somehow I think he already knows. He wouldnt leave me alone in the shower last night when I was crying - which is why I love him so much.
I felt really ugly this morning, and I told him, and in about 10 words he managed to make me feel better and loved. I' still scared that we may break up, but I guess I just have to try not to think about it.
I sold a heap of old clothes on ebay and cleaned up with about $70, so that will be for his chrissy present. I bought mums today and did some other shopping. Aldi has 6 mince pies for $1.69 which is a bargin! Even the home brand are $4 so this is great, and they're delicious!
Ok must go before I turn into an icicle!
Love Kate
I have to make this post quick because although it is nearly 40 degrees outside, the computer room I am in feels sub zero and I am freezing.
I was a bit depressed last night and had a bit of a cry, because I my boy wanted me to do something with him and I was a bitch and ignored it.. but we talked about it and we're ok now, but I think that got me down a little bit.
I still really want to cut myself at times, which is hard, because sometimes it's the only thing that I know will make me feel a little better, but I wouldn't do it to my boy, I love him too much to hurt him like that. I still can't bring myself to tell him that I still feel liek doing it, but somehow I think he already knows. He wouldnt leave me alone in the shower last night when I was crying - which is why I love him so much.
I felt really ugly this morning, and I told him, and in about 10 words he managed to make me feel better and loved. I' still scared that we may break up, but I guess I just have to try not to think about it.
I sold a heap of old clothes on ebay and cleaned up with about $70, so that will be for his chrissy present. I bought mums today and did some other shopping. Aldi has 6 mince pies for $1.69 which is a bargin! Even the home brand are $4 so this is great, and they're delicious!
Ok must go before I turn into an icicle!
Love Kate
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Comment by Ash
Australian Traveller
Flashes of memories
I knew a girl who once used to cut herself. She said that the pain of that was easier to cope with than the pain that she felt inside her. Depression is a very hard thing to cope with and a lot of people don`t understand that it is a disease which is uncontrollable by the person who suffers from it.
Looks like you have found a good boy to be by your side. Every time you look in the mirror just realise that you are special to someone and your contribution to the world is of great importance or else you wouldn`t be here!
Ash
Comment by Ash
Australian Traveller
Flashes of memories
I knew a girl who once used to cut herself. She said that the pain of that was easier to cope with than the pain that she felt inside her. Depression is a very hard thing to cope with and a lot of people don`t understand that it is a disease which is uncontrollable by the person who suffers from it.
Looks like you have found a good boy to be by your side. Every time you look in the mirror just realise that you are special to someone and your contribution to the world is of great importance or else you wouldn`t be here!
Ash
Comment by Ash
Australian Traveller
Flashes of memories
I knew a girl who once used to cut herself. She said that the pain of that was easier to cope with than the pain that she felt inside her. Depression is a very hard thing to cope with and a lot of people don`t understand that it is a disease which is uncontrollable by the person who suffers from it.
Looks like you have found a good boy to be by your side. Every time you look in the mirror just realise that you are special to someone and your contribution to the world is of great importance or else you wouldn`t be here!
Ash
Comment by Ash
Australian Traveller
Flashes of memories
I knew a girl who once used to cut herself. She said that the pain of that was easier to cope with than the pain that she felt inside her. Depression is a very hard thing to cope with and a lot of people don`t understand that it is a disease which is uncontrollable by the person who suffers from it.
Looks like you have found a good boy to be by your side. Every time you look in the mirror just realise that you are special to someone and your contribution to the world is of great importance or else you wouldn`t be here!
Ash